Have you ever been in a position of full and total dependency? To whom? And were you ever disappointed?
No, the question above isn’t supposed to make you doubt your abilities or to make you feel sad if you entirely depend on someone, especially your parents, to survive. And to the category of people who want to rush to the comment section to scream ‘NO! I CANT RELATE, I DEPEND FULLY ON MYSELF’ or the ‘I TRUST NO ONE’ gang, chill first and come with me, I’m going somewhere
I would really love to hear your response(s) to my question, but I’d go first.
Wait! First, promise me in your heart(God sees and hears all things oooooh) that you’d answer my question if I give you my gist.
Now that we are on the same page and we’ve promised to return the same energyyyy, let’s beginnnnnn, officially!
My name is Peace Oguche but I love to be addressed as the Blue Writer. Blue represents healing( I am a preacher of that and I’m also in my healing and wholeness era, love it for me) and I like to write or should I say ‘I have two writing certificates and I have been writing for years now’ yup! Bragging rights my dearsss.
Over the years, I have grown super fond of relying on my mother. She’s such a strong and hardworking woman so much that I can ask a million naira from her and she’d make it available even if it means her working through her nose to raise it. I’m really lucky and grateful to God for the gift of her but it spoilt me and gave me a huge sense of entitlement.
If no one shows up for me financially; I trust my mother to always show up, regardless. But we entered a season of difficulty, thank God things have been better, and it was so hard for my mum to show up. Man! I wasn’t happy. I had depended too much on her ability to come through for me that I forgot I could pray about situations and fully look unto Jesus to meet my needs.
Ladies and gentlemen, I was mad at my mum. I thought she was wicked to me and didn’t care about me anymore. Well, something happened that made me have such thoughts but I was being so unfair to my mum because I refused to believe she didn’t have enough to provide like she used to.
It’s funny how this situation went on for weeks and I was harboring hate and nursing pain in my heart because I was disappointed in my mum. It took a huge toll on me. Ah! I don’t think anyone else has made me feel like that since the time before I fully surrendered my heart to God.
To even make matters worse, I started seeing my school results around that time. Hmm! I was even more broken. I didn’t carry over any course but those results can’t be mine! I can’t even remember how many times I said that to myself and a few friends around me. I mean, I worked too hard to be seeing nonsense results. It was a scary moment for me! I trusted in my academic ability to be getting those grades – I mean it’s good to have confidence in your ability but its the vain kind of confidence (like the one I had)
Ah! My sisters and brothers, I learned my lesson the hard way o! It did give me a factory reset sha.
But now, I am learning not to put my trust in man. Not even in my abilities but to put my trust in God. I am learning that I’d get disappointed if I trust a man. Even more disappointed if I trust in my own strength. It’s sad how it works but it’s a good thing to put your full trust in God. I’m also praying that I never ever trust in horses, chariots, men, and my own ability. But to completely trust in the name of the Lord.
Now my friend, do you still put your hope and trust in yourself or a man(not man man but you getttttt)?? – I really do hope you don’t and also hope you learned a lesson or two from my story.
Till another thoughts-provoking question or conversation, don’t forget to keep the promise you made to me earlier and stay jiggy but don’t put your trust in my Father’s creation sha, If not, them go fail you!
